Hello everyone. I've been trying to find an endometriosis community and came across this one here. I'm 25 and I was diagnosed with endometriosis via lap in 2018. This is my second surgery and I'm starting to doubt myself and my pain.
I have a history of medical professionals dismissing my pain which has led to me doubting myself. I practically had to beg my gynecologist (who I am no longer seeing, I see someone new) to try and look into endometriosis for me.
He did a lap but he admitted to me he didn't look very hard. He found superficial endo on my bladder and my ovaries. He used ablation and put me on birth control. I stopped birth control last year because of the way it was affecting me.
I see a new gynecologist and he's going to do a lap on the 27th of this month. He's very nice and I like him better than my other gynecologist but I get the feeling he isn't expecting to find anything? Maybe I'm just paranoid, I don't know. I'm really bad at explaining my pain and fatigue to doctors, I tend to downplay it a lot.
He's going to make four incision sites and he says he'll excise anything he sees that's problematic. But I'm so worried I'm getting this done for no reason. Maybe I'm just being overdramatic. Maybe this pain is normal, maybe the fatigue is normal. My biggest fear is waking up out of surgery to hear that he found nothing wrong. It would make me feel like such an imposter.
The symptoms I suffer are profound fatigue, pelvic pain, heavy periods, bloating that makes me look pregnant, pain in the back of my thighs, pain in my hips, low back pain, and feeling generally unwell. I have some other TMI symptoms too relating to bowel movements.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to really say here. Any support and advice would be nice, I guess. Thank you for reading this if you did, I appreciate it! I'm sorry if this lacks coherency, I'm too tired to proofread right now.