I am currently seeking a support system when it comes to my endometriosis. It's excruciatingly painful lately and as far as birth control goes nothing seems to work. I've been on 3-4 different birth control pills and now I'm on the depo shot. The depo shot helped for maybe 2 months before I was right back to where I started bent over tied to a heating pad trying not to vomit. I'm in hell for at minimum 2 weeks out of the month feeling like my insides are being squeezed by barbed wire.
The 1st time I went to an OBGYN I had a transvaginal ultrasound where they found nothing and told me it was psychosomatic due to my history of sexual assault. Needless to say that this has affected me psychologically and I have struggled to not only go to an OBGYN for fear of being told that my pain was purely psychological but I struggle with being touched still as well. I recently found my biological family about a year ago and discovered that my oldest sister, biological mother, and aunt all have been diagnosed with endometriosis. My sister finally was able to have a hysterectomy after she had 3 children, and after multiple ablations. In all honesty I want a hysterectomy so I no longer have to live like this, but I know the reality is that no surgeon would perform that immediately on a 21 year old. The pain is just too much some days and I struggle to hold it together. After yesterday and almost throwing up in the bathroom at work, I asked for the name of my coworkers sister's surgeon and I'm finally reaching out for help again from a surgeon yesterday and I'm scared for not only what they might find but that the doctor may not even be able to help me. I KNOW that this kind of pain isn't all in my head and I'm tied to my heating pad right now as I'm writing this. I feel as though I not only need support but advice for the consultation I will have with the surgeon, not only what to expect but advice. I'm starting to feel like this may be my last hope for a "normal life" and any advice would be greatly appreciated.