OMG

I remember going to the doctor when I was 13 and she was telling me about what a period would be like and I was like OMG. I was a little scared and confused why I was bleeding out and still alive lol. And as I started to have a period I was just bleeding a lot and would have to keep going up pad sizes and I would always have leaks. I was just so upset and would cry every time. I would have to wake up in the middle of the night to change my pajamas and I thought this was normal and just had to deal with it. Then I would start to have two periods a month and the pain just got really bad and where I couldn’t even sleep. My doctor said I just needed to go on the hormonal pill, and I did. I started to feel depressed. Then I got off the pill and tried stronger ibuprofen taking it 4 days before my period, 3 times a day. So then that didn’t work so I went back on the hormonal pill and I felt even more depressed and still had pain, just not the cramps. So now I was like I am done forget that stuff and I decided to just stop taking it. And then I talked to my doctor and she was like, you have the most worst period I have every seen. And I was like Yeah, like I wasn’t trying to tell you that before. And I feel so sad because I can’t eat beef or pork because it makes my stomach hurt bad. And I just felt so alone because my mom was like there is nothing wrong with you and my dad was like you should only be going to the Doctor once a year. I released that forget what they say and I did my research and I found this space where I can talk. And I was so upset because my mom was like yea I had some pain on my period but it wasn’t that bad when I though we where the same. But anyways I am now writing a book and trying to get the help I need and go to a OBGYN to get help and if she can’t help tell her to send me to a endometriosis Doctor. And I released all that I am so young stuff don’t have anything to do with me I need answers.