Afraid of getting a pain attack while being alone with my 2 year son

Do you feel safe being left alone with your kids knowing that an pain attack can hit anny moment?

I had a surgery for endometrosis 8 years ago. Since then I've been having sudden pain attacks that lasts from 20 second to 20 minutes. In this time I can't moove and I can only lay down i one very akward position. It feel like my intestones are tearing each other apart.

When our son were younger he was (i soppose) like any other kid trying to kill himself every second minute by jumping off a table or something similar. At that time I have been very anxious when my boufriend leaves for a whole weekend and i 4 hours away.

The last month I've been stuggling with a completely new type of pain. This pain more reminds me of a bad streefood feeling and is accompanied with nausea. Last monday i think i passed out due to the pain. Five days later my boyfriend had plans out and i should take care of our 2 year old son that day. I were very afraid passing out while having our son on my own. I tried to invite family or friends over, but they had other plans.

Later that day i found out that he was very annoyed that he coulnd't leave without a bad feeling. And apparently he think that is a common thing that he can't leave for longer distances without me being worried. And he thinks it's annoying i've been asking him to put the phone on sound so that i can reach him and call him home if a pain attack happens.

I don't no if i have been too woried. But i think it a really difficult situation.