Hello i need some advice. I am feeling at rock bottom and dont know what todo. I always expected to naturally have a child but that didnt work so turned to ivf but after 7 failed ivf attempts and then finally being diagnosed with stage 4 endometriosis the reality started to hammer home it wasnt going to happen. I am 45 years old. I try not to think about this as it causes a deep rooted yearning for me followed by a substantial amount of emotion so completely block it out from my day to day thinking. However out of the blue today my dearest partner started harpering on about adoption which he had never mentioned before. This caused an almighty argument as i dont know how i feel about it. I said the same to my partner. He did not accept this and kept pushing and pushing one minute saying if he was single he would have adopted by now even though the topic has never come up nor his interest in adoption. He has been telling outside people i am not interested in adoption which is unfair as we have never discussed this before and i said the same to him. I understand he gets asked why he doesnt have kids and since he didnt want to tell people about ivf the perception is that we dont want them which is so far from the truth. I feel very hurt outsiders are influencing how he is behaving towards me even though he is also contributing to this and making it far worse instead of being open and honest. Worst still he doesnt understand that even now for a women not to be able to bear children has a big impact on her as you kind of expect it to be a no brainer. I know this is not a healthy situation and told him if he wants to pursue single adoption he can but i still dont know. He then insists he doesnt want to but is doing it for me which is even more confusing as i dont mention children or anything like that. I have been researching adoption to give it a fair chance but am on the fence so can someone please tell me when they knew it was time to move on as my mind isnt at that stage yet? Thanks and sorry for the long post i am still very upset and confused.